I’m still in love with you, and I will still be in love with you forever.

Just because you’re a guy with gay friends doesn’t mean that you have a “thing with them. Honestly, gays or any other sexualities can be friends with straight people without any “thing” going on. No we don’t rape straight people, and NO we don’t go for straight people. We actually know where we stand.

I don’t matter to you anymore. I’m just a stranger now. I might have my own thing to do, I might seem like I don’t need you, but I really do. You say that I’m leaving you because you’re not “fun” enough or do the things that you do, but honestly, you’re just pushing me away. Can I say jealous? Yes, I am indeed. I see how you are, just walk away from me and act like our friendship mean nothing. Go ahead and find other people now since you’re “more outgoing”, but don’t forget that I established that for you. I hope one day things will change, but if it’s not, then I’m sorry, but I can’t go on being friends with you and your “people.”

Relationships work because both person puts in the effort. It’s a give and take relationship and it applies to all. You can’t leave one person to do all the work because then the relationship will be boring and dull. Take turns to take each other out. Laugh with her. Play video games with him. Kiss her often. Let him pick the next place to eat. Tell her your secrets. Tell him you’ll keep them forever. Grab her hand, hug her unexpectedly. Buy him a small gift every now and then. True, those are little things, but the littlest things creates the biggest gain in a relationship.

one day I’ll find my way out of here. Maybe one day I’ll leave this world knowing that I made a difference. I need to get out of here. I don’t want to see the same people, I don’t want to do the same routines, I don’t want to walk into the same buildings or the same house anymore. I want to leave and discover the world on my own without anyone holding me back. Maybe then I’ll find true love. Maybe then I’ll find my dream career. Maybe then I have people who actually loves me for me. Maybe.

I’ll make it happen.